Johnny Manziel was once the hoped-for deliverer of Cleveland Browns, followed by several escapades away from the square and a rapid crash, only two years in the NFL. Now the 25-year-old is purifying himself and wants to return.
“I take medication for a bipolar disorder and I’m working to make sure I don’t fall back into some sort of depression – because I know where it’s going to take me and I know how tight the line is for me,” said Manziel in a conversation with Good Morning America. I can’t change how I’ve been mentally created.”
But at least he showed insight into how it doesn’t work:”I have treated myself with alcohol. I thought it would make me happy and help me out of the depression. When I woke up the next day after such a night, it’s all gone, all that “liquid courage”, if you will, this fluid euphoria. That’s all gone.”
And then you “stand alone” there and then again in the depression. Then you think extremely downcast about all the mistakes you’ve made. What’s the point? Where did that get me, except in the NFL? What use was it to me?” He had this feeling of having a certain aspiration, because of the things I had already done in such a young age. For a while, I was completely selfish. Looking back at it now, I felt terrible.”
Now he is striving for the big comeback:”I’m back after a big crash. I don’t know what kind of comeback it will be, but I know I want to go back to the football field that gave me so much pleasure.”